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stop the ride, i want to get off…

Tuesday, September 16th, 2008
I just want to stop hurting.   To stop crying at the drop of a hat.   To stop looking over at Chris and feeling utterly helpless because there's nothing I can do to comfort him because I'm feeling much of the same pain.   I just want our kitty back.   I can't believe how badly this hurts this time around. Never before have I been through this with someone so closely, lived in the same house at the same time, cared for the animal together like we did.   Before there was always a safe distance, a mental and physical buffer zone from the worst of the pain and the loss. This time it's in my face 24/7, and I can't escape it because I always have… Read More

tonight my heart is breaking as life can be so cruel…

Sunday, September 14th, 2008
Life can change in an instant. There was no better proof of that than tonight.  

Brisco, our sweet prince Brisco  1999 - 2008

 

A little before 5pm tonight, I was sitting on the couch in the basement when Brisco came up beside me. He was getting love and purring and suddenly I thought he was slipping off the edge of the couch. Sadly I caught the look of panic on his face before he fell to the floor and stopped moving. He kept purring while I started to panic and called for Chris to… Read More